May 11, 2018

Philippines 2018 - "Always"

"Always" was the word.
I'd always like her, regardless. Because no matter what, she'll always be on my mind.

"After all this time?"
"Always."
I never watched any of the Harry Potter movies. I always saw them as not my kind of movies. That piece of dialogue is the only thing I like from the movies.

When I went to the Philippines last January, that was the key word on my mind - 'always'. I'll always go to the Robinson's Magnolia. I'll always go to UST. I will always go to Greenhills and V-Mall. And I'll always look for her.

I always hated myself for making that stupid mistake years ago that cost me a friend. It'll always suck because I keep thinking "She's always going to hate you. She's always going to see you as nobody."

So, after constantly trying to forget her and whatever "moving on" is supposed to be (I hear it's great!); after the countless number times I thought no one would ever live up to what she and I never had; after all the years trying to get her out of your mind but at the same time, get her to be in your life again somehow; after all this time? 

Always.