January 2, 2018

Question love and God, and will you find what you're looking for?

I don't wanna feel that stupid internal lapse of judgment known as attraction. I don't like it. I don't like it anymore. I want it to stop. I never want to feel it again. I don't want to be attracted to anyone anymore. I hate it. I hate how it kills me inside every time. I want it to go away. It's this momentary high that makes me think everything is going sunny then I ask the question, the question I hate asking:

Why won't the rainclouds go away?