August 30, 2017
July 1, 2017
I miss my friend Ash. She's great. And I'm never going to be able to talk to her again.
I never thought of her as someone who was 100 percent great - I mean that in the friendliest way possible - but she's been a great friend to talk to. Sure we had some disagreements, especially during my mood swings where she'd seriously call me out on being insensitive, but what friendship doesn't have these potholes? A genuine one would always have ups and downs. And I miss that.
I don't like what happened to her - no one does - but I wish I could've helped somehow.
And maybe one day she'll leave the horror. Oh well. It's future rust and it's future dust.
June 5, 2017
April 18, 2017
"So take some time to listen to people who might be reaching out to you when they're trying not to kill themselves and you don't even realize it. You could be the reason why they live."
Motherfucker, I've been trying to do that to you and all of our friends for the past 4 years I've been here but I've just been getting ignored because fuck me, right? Fuck the friend in Canada who you said you'd all miss. Fuck that guy who had the time and money to send one of our friends a gift from Canada all the way to wasteland Philippines JUST BECAUSE he wanted to make a friend happy and that same friend never bothered talking to him again. Fuck that guy who's trying to reconnect friendships with classmates from days gone by and didn't even get invited to hang out by a majority of these "friends who'll miss him" when said friend just so happened to visit. Fuck that guy, right?
I see the thought and I can appreciate that, but really, when someone comes to talk to you on the brink of easily killing themselves and you "don't realize it" because you're too busy to even chat with someone, maybe it's best to not tell others that you'll listen.
It's social media activism all over again. You can easily say "I'm always open to listen" but when someone talks, none of you listen. Because god knows, we need more deaf ears.
April 8, 2017
March 16, 2017
March 14, 2017
March 1, 2017
February 14, 2017
February 13, 2017
Tsawwassen Mills is a terrible idea that came to life. It's unnecessary, despite how huge of a mall it is. Sure, it's probably giving a lot of jobs to people but on the Mills website, there's a ton of job openings there which I assume is from people quitting from how far the damn place is. It's 29 kilometeres from the fucking train station and from civilization at that. It's located at a place where there aren't any frequent buses riding along for passengers. It's gotten to the point where they have to provide shuttles because goddamn it, they didn't think of public transportation. But the shuttles aren't free for employees since it costs another 40 bucks a month off your paycheck just to get to a damn mall that isn't that interesting or successful to begin with.
What makes Guildford Town Centre and Metropolis at Metrotown super successful? They have smart marketing where they place ads on public transport and they're easily accessible by, you guessed it, public transport. They're a breeze to go to as long as you know where you're going. The 96-B Line fucking stops at Guildford Mall, goddamn it, so that's a huge bonus is foot traffic.
Mills - I'm so fucking sick of how stupid Tsawwassen is spelled - is located in a no man's land near a ferry. On their first three days of opening, they were already on the news on how shitty their parking is and how some dudes apparently took 2 hours to leave the parking area because of how unorganized it is.
Mills is like having an expensive airport in the middle of the desert.
February 12, 2017
January 9, 2017
10 years ago, handheld gaming for me was the coolest thing ever. How could it not? It kept me sane from boring family gatherings, school outings, and therapy. Now, I and other people have considered the smartphone to be the most convenient handheld gaming platform nowadays. “Convenient” doesn’t necessarily mean “the best”. 7-Eleven is a convenient place for fried chicken but that doesn’t mean it overshadows KFC or Bon Chon (shoutout to you South Korean chicken lovers). 10 years ago, cellphones were still dominated by Blackberries and Nokias instead of the sleek iPhones and Samsungs of today so gaming was out of the question mostly. The best handheld experiences have come from dedicated gaming consoles instead of phones that happen to play video games. Handheld consoles were always going to be a step better with their dedicated hardware controls and gimmicks.
When I was a little boy rather than the actual big boy I am today, the PSP was something I wished for. Instead of buying a PSP though, I bought a Gameboy Micro for my birthday because it was the more familiar choice. Even if the Gameboy Micro was fun, the PSP was revolutionary for my untrained mind because the idea of 3D gaming with PlayStation or PlayStation 2 levels of graphics on the go was an awesome thing to have. My rich classmates had it and seeing a full 3D Dynasty Warriors game on the go was awesome at the time.
January 1, 2017
Quick and dirty because I feel like it's just gonna it's gonna be another drudging year of video games, cellphones, and singlehood. Another year wasted, another year going to waste.
Happy new year, if ever it is happy!